try not to be my student

try not to be my student

Don’t look for a teacher like me. Do you know why? No really, try not to be my student. Because the problem is, I love myself too much. I don’t care about your enlightenment. So if I, since I love myself so much, if you come and if you make mistake, you remember earlier example I gave you, I will say: “Okay don’t worry.” So I will have more and more population, members of my disciples. I will not go and say: “Don’t do this. Don’t do that.” Because I am so scared I will lose you. Feeling of rejection is terrible. Being rejected by your student. Wow, that’s painful. If you want the enlightenment, I am not the right person to be teaching you. Really, seriously, from the bottom of my heart I am confessing this. I am not joking or anything like that. If you, really, if you become my student I will tell you what you want to hear. Hardly I will tell you what you need to hear. That is one side of me. The second side of me, I am just impossible to handle. I tell you. Impossible. Really really the most obnoxious, most spoiled, most selfish, most hard to find anyway.

The Three Levels of Perception, Singapore 2003